weight loss

A Difficult Case With Carbohydrates

Last year for almost two months I did the ketogenic diet with my (then) boyfriend. He Lost 50+ pounds within months. I lost 13 in three weeks, stalled after that (did not lose for 4 weeks) and was always hungry. I read so many different things about why I might not be losing, and it came down to too many reasons. It complicated what I wanted to be a simple way to lose weight and get healthy. I could have been stalled because: I was eating dairy, too many calories, too much protein, not enough fat, too many carbs. Those are just a few of the reasons. It gave me a headache.

Since then I’ve tried ketogenic once after that, and it may have worked but in my circumstances I couldn’t get my head where I wanted to be.

Between the time that I started eating keto, and a month or so after I had blood work done and my A1C number went down .3 which is great! After keto, I gained a bit back, and mostly maintained. In January I joined Weight Watchers. I lost what I had gained back, so when I weighed in with my doctor last week I was only one pound over what I had been last year at my weigh in with the better A1C. I had blood work done. I was hoping that it stayed at the same, at least. I didn’t expect it to have gone lower. My number had risen again – back to where I was last year when I was almost twenty pounds heavier.

I’m not here to talk bad about Weight Watchers but I want to point out that your leader is just your leader. It was suggested to me that I eat more whole grains, and it’s always suggested that you didn’t get to the weight you are today from eating too much fruit. Fruit is 0 points. They want you to choose it over ice cream. Understandably so. But Weight Watchers leaders aren’t nutritionists. They don’t have a background that makes them understand how different macros can act in your body.

And while I will tell you I am also not a nutritionist, I have read so much about the way that food and nutrients work in your body that sometimes I just can’t agree with that Weight Watchers tells you. If you have blood sugar problems, eating fruit can exacerbate the issue. One banana has 29g of carbohydrates. That’s as much as a nutritionist will tell you to eat in one MEAL. So if you’re eating a banana with strawberries plus a sandwich and some popcorn for lunch, and innocent 13 Smart Point lunch is all sugar. And in some people that isn’t a problem.

But for me it is. The proof is in the blood work.

It’s frustrating. Thinking about food all the time is already frustrating. Then to add to it restricting what I eat to a healthier volume is frustrating (even though I know that it’s healthier). Then on top of that to start limiting carbohydrates? Difficult. But doable.

So I am taking the rest of the week, plus this weekend (mostly because I have plans that will make it difficult for me to have entire control of the food that is offered to me) to regroup and figure out exactly how to implement a lower carb Weight Watchers plan for me.

And as always, I will report back. Because I need to figure out something that works.



melanie kristy · musings · weight loss

State Of The Writer

It’s been a long winter. Technically, it’s still winter for twenty more days and even though it’s supposed to be back in the 30’s this weekend I’m still declaring winter over. That probably means I’ll be grumbly and cranky when I have to wear a winter jacket this weekend (it’s also possible that I’ll be cranky because I’m cold because I won’t be wearing said jacket, who knows!).

I wanted to take a moment to kind of address who I am and where I am and what I’m doing. Vague enough for you, right?

My favorite band has a full blown weekend festival every May, and they do this thing called “State of the Band” where they talk about what they want to do and what their plans are. I’m in the middle of settling into my plans to travel to Tulsa in May for this weekend, so that term is on my mind.

So here are a couple things:

I was seeing someone for almost all of last year. In the summer it got weird/ complicated/ not great, and in September it ended. For months after that I felt awkward and swollen and lost. I don’t handle heartbreak well at all. It tends to shake me up and spit me out into tiny pieces like my heart is made of paper and heartbreak makes me into recycled pulp. I am better now. Stronger. Moving on. I am single and wanting to be single.

There has been other heartbreak recently, but it’s more personal and I’ll leave that out.

Since last April I’ve worked full time at a library, and I’ve had lots of different responsibilities during my time there. I love it a lot. I’ve learned so much and met a lot of great people.

I keep having these moments where I think something to the effect of: I’m not sure what I’m doing with myself or my life. I think about how I feel unfulfilled in aspects of my life, I’m uninspired and unsure. Every time I have these moments, everything comes back to writing. And so that’s why I’m here. I have a goal to write intentionally for all of March, and to post here every single day. I want this to be the kick off to something, even if it’s just the growth of this lovely little neglected blog.

Last summer I started selling Perfectly Posh products. If you don’t already know, I’m a huge fan of bath and body products. Lush Cosmetics is one of my favorite stores. While I still love Lush with all my heart, Posh has wedged its way into my heart and I’ve found a lot of products that I love. I really like Posh’s products and their ethics. I’d love for you to check out their catalog.

In January I signed up for Weight Watchers, for the 110th time. I will post a lot about health and weight in here. I am a very body-positive person, and I struggle with putting the concepts of “weight loss” and “body positivity” together in the same space. The thing is, everyone is different. There’s nothing wrong with my body how it is, and there is nothing wrong with your body. In fact, I’m willing to bet you are beautiful. That being said, I personally am not happy where I am. I haven’t ever actually been happy. I love my body and I want it to be able to move and stay active. I want it to be able to protect me and remain healthy for me, and because of that I’ve joined Weight Watchers again for me. For my body. There’s nothing wrong with me for doing so, and there’s nothing wrong with you for not taking any sort of “diet” path.

I love you all, and I’m hoping to meet more bloggers and readers to please comment if you’re reading this. Comment if you’re blogging.

Spread joy.



story · weight loss

Joining Weight Watchers for the 1,000,000th Time

I’ve done it again. I’ve joined and quit Weight Watchers on and off since I was 17. I’ve been successful, I’ve had a hard time, I’ve not had my head in the game. Last year I took an entire year off. I tried to do very low carb twice with moderate initial success which only lead to weight gain in the long run. I’ve read all the books. I’ve counted calories (every site I look up gives me a different calorie goal). I’ve wanted to be able to be extreme and failed because I’m not an extreme person, at least not when it comes to follow through.


So here I am again, just starting out a fresh new year with the same goals in mind. Lose weight. Be Healthy.


Except I want it to work this time. I want to believe that I’ve gotten to a place in my life that I can at least learn how to make it work. I want to believe that I can do this in a way that I guess I’ve never quite believed before. I don’t want to be hungry all the time. I want to fuel my body and learn what it needs to keep on going.


So I joined Weight Watchers. I joined for the support and accountability, and I joined so I can have a plan that I don’t have to think too much about. I’ve read all the weight loss/ health/ diet/ nutrition books I can find. I think that having too much information can be just as harmful as not having enough information. Why? Because there are so many ways to go about this, and they conflict each other. So I’m starting simple. I’m making turkey sandwiches and drinking kefir for breakfast (and usually eating some sort of bar for breakfast as well). I’m trying not to finish the foods I get out at restaurants – make them into two meals. I am limiting pizza from my life. I’m going back to basics so I can figure things out from there.
This blog has always been about being on a journey, even if sometimes that blogging journey has been non-existent. There are so many things I want to do to change and grow and right now this is my immediate focus. I hope you’ll stick around for the experiences I want to have. It’s not going to all be health related. As with other aspects of my life, I can’t just focus on one thing somewhere, so this blog won’t have a narrow focus either. I just want to make sure it still lives. That words still breathe. That I can use them in a way I seem to have forgotten about. And in doing so, I’ll have achieved another goal/ focus that I’m always trying to work on. Write more. (Say more. Express more.)