I’ve done it again. I’ve joined and quit Weight Watchers on and off since I was 17. I’ve been successful, I’ve had a hard time, I’ve not had my head in the game. Last year I took an entire year off. I tried to do very low carb twice with moderate initial success which only lead to weight gain in the long run. I’ve read all the books. I’ve counted calories (every site I look up gives me a different calorie goal). I’ve wanted to be able to be extreme and failed because I’m not an extreme person, at least not when it comes to follow through.
So here I am again, just starting out a fresh new year with the same goals in mind. Lose weight. Be Healthy.
Except I want it to work this time. I want to believe that I’ve gotten to a place in my life that I can at least learn how to make it work. I want to believe that I can do this in a way that I guess I’ve never quite believed before. I don’t want to be hungry all the time. I want to fuel my body and learn what it needs to keep on going.
So I joined Weight Watchers. I joined for the support and accountability, and I joined so I can have a plan that I don’t have to think too much about. I’ve read all the weight loss/ health/ diet/ nutrition books I can find. I think that having too much information can be just as harmful as not having enough information. Why? Because there are so many ways to go about this, and they conflict each other. So I’m starting simple. I’m making turkey sandwiches and drinking kefir for breakfast (and usually eating some sort of bar for breakfast as well). I’m trying not to finish the foods I get out at restaurants – make them into two meals. I am limiting pizza from my life. I’m going back to basics so I can figure things out from there.
This blog has always been about being on a journey, even if sometimes that blogging journey has been non-existent. There are so many things I want to do to change and grow and right now this is my immediate focus. I hope you’ll stick around for the experiences I want to have. It’s not going to all be health related. As with other aspects of my life, I can’t just focus on one thing somewhere, so this blog won’t have a narrow focus either. I just want to make sure it still lives. That words still breathe. That I can use them in a way I seem to have forgotten about. And in doing so, I’ll have achieved another goal/ focus that I’m always trying to work on. Write more. (Say more. Express more.)